When you don't know where you're going but you wanna talk...

"You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung, or do
Something that's never been done..."

Well today was pretty volatile. Extension english was good, my story is well on its way. [see other blog]. Double religion not bad. Legal was alright too. Pastoral Care was very good. Definitely happy with that. English was good, thanks to Steph L's little yummy cakes. Economics was alright as well.

I borrowed a book today, called GriEVE, yes, the capitals are intentional. I was reading it and it just seemed so real. I could connect with Eve, and I was pretty hooked until Mum decided she wanted to have a go at me. Sorry that I need a break. Thank *deity* that I get a break tomorrow - kind of.

I also went to the physio today which was interesting because I don't usually like people touching my back. The experience was, well, exactly that, an experience. My hip and back still hurt though, so I'm going back tomorrow, hence my little break. Might skip maths if I can tomorrow, I want a longer break, turn up to lunch then go to the gym for CC.

I feel sad right now. Wishful, too. I want things to be nice. I wish my mum could realise that I love her, and that I am a good person, I just don't work well under her pressure. It's her birthday on Friday and I have done nothing about it. Blah. Crying makes me tired. To be honest what I want right now is someone to cuddle, hold and squeeze the air out of, just to know that they're real.

You know what amazes me on a daily basis? How incredibly volatile some people are. Lots of people outwardly show their moods or their feelings towards you, either positive or negative. I feel so alienated when people just ignore me, but the feeling is much, much worse when people cahnge again and are suddenly chum buddies with you again. For starters, it's confusing. But greaater than that is it shows they've got no maturity.

But I already knew that, so I shouldn't really be surprised...