The Demons in your head...

"Everything I wanted to be every
Time I walked away
Everytime you told me to leave I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and
Everytime you smiled
I felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead..."

I'm seriously thinking that love songs and chick flicks are weapons of the world to make those of us without "Starlight" [thank you, Muse] feel so much worse. I mean, the initial feeling I get when I watch or read or hear about a love story is a good one - that warm fuzzy feeling that most of us feel - but then I feel sad, jealous and pathetic. Despite my youth, I feel like I'm missing something big and life changing. Something we call 'love'. I know it's early days, but I sometimes doubt it happening to me, no matter what my age is. I love books with happy romantic endings for the most part, but I don't think I'll end up with my Mr. Darcy, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Rochester or Edward Cullen, just to name a famous few.