I was damned by the light comin'

"Ooh

Standing by a broken tree

Her hands are all twisted,

She's pointing at me,

I was damned by the light comin'

Over all as she

Spoke with a voice that,

disrupted the sky.

She said,"Walk on over, yeah

to this bit of shade,

I will wrap you in my arms"

And hold you safe,

"Let me sign, let me sign.""

Oh my god, Robert Pattinson makes me one of the most depressed creatures on this earth. How is it that one person could possess all that talent!? I mean, is it not enough that he is blessed with incredible good looks? Why does he have to be an actor AND a musician, and a good one at that? Is it ever fair? He's more like Edward Cullen than people would think, despite the mind-reading and all that immortality, but still! C'mon!

Alex and I were discussing the benefits of having a boy climb through our windows to lie next to in bed, just talking and that. November 19, we both can't wait. We're going to take tissues, for me it's for my anticipated depression on understanding what I cannot, and will not have. Ever.

It's movies and stories like this that make me so sad. I mean, is it even possible that people can be so much in love. I am impatient to feel like that. Impatient to know it's real. Impatient to be loved by someone I love as well. I don't want it to be one-sided. I want someone to write music inspired by their love for me -my God, how selfish of me! I just want something life changing to happen to me, which isn't happening, so I'm gradually accepting the fact that my life is going to end up being mediocre.

I think I shouldn't lie as much as I do. Well, not lie, but encourage things I'm not 100% sure about. It doesn' hurt me to change my mind, but I know that other people cop the brunt of it. It's not fair to anyone, really.

I think that every 5-10 years there are one or two novel series that get kids to read and I am so thankful that they exist. Kudos to Rowling and Meyer.

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