At the Beginning of a whole new age.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you
can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're
right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe

So, because it is a new year and all, it would be a good time to start afresh. I'm going to start this year with a different perspective to the last. In terms of blogging anyway.

I just realised something. Some things go back to the way they were at the beginning. Like Gilmore Girls. Every time I watch it from the start it's always the same. But that is inevitable. Other things like when you meet someone. The way you talk at the beginning of a friendship, when you get to know things about them, sometimes that returns and I'm happy about that. Sometimes I miss the beginnings. The innocence. At times I want to skip back in time to the beginnings of things, before all the shit happens and things go wrong. So, this is what I'm doing. I'm going back to the beginning. Cliche enough as it is, I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm not really one for new year's resolutions but there are a few things I do want to do, to be different. I want to do this year being me. Being real. Being honest.

I want to do the things I didn't do last year. I want the wrongs I made, whether they be choices or actions or whatever to be made right. I want to be happy and I'm not going to look to many people for that. Something I learnt last year is that you can't always trust the people you want to and the only person you can depend on is yourself. I want to have some fun and maybe like someone, but if nobody comes along then I'm not going to let it bother me. I'm going to try not to be jealous. I'm going to be nice as hard as it gets. I'm definitely going to smile more. And try harder. I'm going to take Marilyn's advice. I'm not going to make any more excuses. I'm going to finish what I started. If I love someone, I'm going to tell them. Maybe. :]

And to my lack of readers, I'm not going to write 864 word blogs every time, 'cause who could be fucked, seriously.

Anyways... Laters!

Stephie♥♣♠♦