Thank You.

"I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life"

• First on the agenda. I just want to put it out there that I had one of the best days of my life last week. You made me happier than I have been in quite some time. I was so nervous, you probably have no idea. I didn't eat 'cause my stomach was already crazy. The coffee and everything else may not have helped either, but there you go. We just floated around... and to be perfectly honest, it all felt really natural. From the beginning. That's something I noticed about you and me, there's no bullshit on the surface. We are who we are and we know that. I thought it went well and I came away happy. Even though you seemed kinda shy. I think I looked cute, but who knows what you thought. I haven't heard from you since and it makes me a little sad, but then I am angry with myself at the same time for allowing myself to hope. I don't know. And I hate not knowing things. I wanna do this again. Not over again, just again.
• I forget what the rest of this was about... I don't know! Grrr. It's annoying when you forget things.

Lessons of Life.

• Lesson one: Do NOT trust anyone.
• Lesson two: Never write your feelings or adventures down so that people can read them.
• Lesson three: Don't do stupid things.
  
• Never trust anyone, because more than 90% of the time they go and fuck you around anyway. How can people find out things that you only told one person. So much for honestly and loyalty guys, thanks. And you wonder why I hate you! You're the one that pretends to be all depressed because you're a fucking attention seeking little shit. You're the clingy, obsessive, crazy bitch that annoys everyone. I'd rather say nothing to you than have you spread shit around.
• Don't write stuff down 'cause someone will always read it. That's just the way it is. Some, (most) people don't care that it's your private writings and that tehy're invading your privacy, but whatever. Lesson learnt, right?
• Not that what I've done in recent times is wrong. Not that I regret it. Just the fact that even though you've done the same and tried the same things I have, it's still "wrong" in your eyes. I need a Pro-Con list about leaving. But then again I dont know enough for this to work. Don't do stupid things. Fine, I wont. I can trust myself not to, but you can't. I wish you would. It's ironic, but in all the times I've done something I know you wouldn't like, I've been safe about it. I don't let things get out of my control.

I don't get your logic. Are you angry or just disappointed. Don't hate on me, it only makes it worse. I mean, if you don't let me go, how can I convince you that I can be responsible?

What's going through your head?